Perfection

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections..."

So as of today, right this very minute, I am no longer going to dwell on what I can't have, but yet all that I do have. I am blessed beyond words in my life, truly beyond words. However, I constantly choose to dwell on the fact that I can't quite achieve the SAHM status I so desire. For some reason it's not in God's plan for us right now. I've actually spent the last few weeks extremely depressed and a little angry, but no more! I'm counting my blessings today and being glad for all that I have!

• A glorious God!
• My faith!
• A husband that truly loves me and works his you know what off for us everyday.
• Two beautiful children that I adore.
• A home to call our own.
• A job, when many don't have one these days.
• Cars that run and take us where we need to go.
• Family and friends.
• A wonderful Christian preschool that I know my little boy is safe and having fun everyday.
• Great trustworthy people to take care of my little girl when I have to work.

I think from now on I will end each post with a note of Thanksgiving for all that God has blessed us with. It does a body good to lift up praise to the Heavenly Father for all that is good and wonderful in life.

I also have finally figured out what to do with my second blog, Restless Ponderings. I really struggle with how to be all that I can be in the role that God has blessed me with, while working full time. I want to do right by my children and raise them to be faith filled little souls. I take the role of motherhood very seriously, and I also believe very much that the role of a mother is best served at home. However, this world sometimes limits one's choices and you have to do the best you can. I started a study at Church last week called Women of Grace. We are studying a book called Grace Filled Moments by Johnnette Benkovic. I think this is exactly the push I've been needing to address all those struggles within myself. I will be devoting Restless Ponderings to my journey to find my authentic self and my path to finding peace and balance in the role I play in our family, whether someday that is a SAHM or it continues on as it does now. For I know God has a plan for me and I know that no matter what it is, I can be a fabulous mother and wife either way. So raise your glass of whatever (mine happens to be white chocolate mocha this evening) and clink it with me, here's to a start of journey within a journey.