God is Good

For those of you that don't know...we moved during the last few weeks. I swear this the last time that I want to move for a long time. We down-sized as to save money and to work on our little family. So far I am loving it. Very cozy and just enough room. Plus a dishwasher! I haven't had a dishwasher in two years and boy am I loving my new one! I can't say enough about having a dishwasher!
I've been feeling a little blue recently...it's a lot of things really. Moving, having to travel for work, money is tight, missing Jack while traveling, hating how bad I've let my body go since Jack was born and realizing all the work I have to do to get it back into a state where a second baby might be possible, coming to the realization that I have to let some dreams go too... I think that last one is the hardest. I've so struggled with what I always thought my dreams for my life were and where God has actually placed me. I always wanted to be a stay at home mom and I'm coming to terms with the fact that it just can't be...at least right now. People always say bloom where you are planted. What if you just don't want to? I know...I'm being stubborn and moody and I'll get out of this funk eventually. Really I will...
While moving and packing, I came across an old CD from a CRHP (Christ Renews His Parish) retreat I did at church when we first got married. Funny thing is our current parish has been leaving me messages for weeks about doing a CRHP retreat that just passed. I kept thinking with each voicemail, how did I get on that list?! As you can see I never called back. I know that is horrible, but there was too much going on in my life, and I couldn't take that too. But the point to my rambling is that I found the CD, and I keep listening to this song on it over and over. It's called Life is Hard, God is Good by Pam Thum. I love it. It helps me keep myself in check in my current mood and to realize that..." Yes, life is hard, but God is good."